And then sometimes you think you should give up , but unfortunatelly its one of the only things in this world you know about cos you lived it, and everything going on in world is futile, to fix the problem it just gets accepted well thats tje way it is , but no i will not accept it ever, and will try to at least do a few posts , that are nothing like substack , you wont find it there, ever , its my unique perspective that i cant rally any conversation about in fact, a person from bsv i wont say no names really gave it to me publicly , presumong they knew what i am talking about, but they dont.
Im even questioning what im talking about, but everything but everything has been tried and then people have the tanacity to blame the west and capitalism. When downright stupid behaviour, by youth that does not have another avenue gets them locked up tjen it becomes normalized and then try to reach someone that has accepted going to gaol as a normal everyday thing, yeah mate yeah mate gaols not that bad, , lots of people go there , we look up to people from gaol more than anyone oh yeah everyone goes through that man up dont be a pussy , well guess what i am fucken manning up and as far as this it gets to a point that you question that you could ever be a pussy when it comes to this and youll go out punching king and cursing and much worse before youll allow it to even look like it could happen again.
Yeah then they go oh yeah everyone has problems eat a teaspoon of concrete, then you think to yourself youve inhaled absorbed more concrete than anyone you know cos your a stubborn cunt that diddnt wear a mask and your shocked that you can somehow breathe, but yeah you wish everyone had your particular dillema them you might know what to do.
But no you know you got to do what you have to bloody do. And maybe even vaguly wording the situation might give it a hope of not being buried and forgot because you cant find one other person remotely seeing your angle.
Yeah hows it going everyone hope im not being to obtuse.
Or out there. Would love to get someones view anyone anything, will even totally ignore trolling and curseing and verbal abuse on this one , .
I did read an essay in fact it was the first essay i saw of theirs sort of delvong into what im trying to say . And was extreamly stunned and not aware of any other anything like it , its as though they described what was going on in my head , and it was such a relief that one other person remotely was experiencing a particular branch of mental problem