Lex, I don't even understand the entirety of my activity or my goals or where this is all going. It's a bit of a wild west situation we're in. If I don't know exactly where I'm headed - maybe how can they? Maybe they can model it, maybe not.
I just trust in higher power and do my best. That's how I cope - believing everything will end well for ALL of us and doing my best with the weird hand I was dealt.