Was going to do maybe some real real work not how i say im working . At treechat im working to get out of this place  you get desencitised. It cant stay hell  . What if i said my bad place is hell but some one elses wasnt as bad .  You dont have to sell your level of depravity you have felt.  It shows  you cant fake it and you cant i dont know when i write like that its not cos i want to .  I detest it all my writing this isnt writing these are the keystrokes of a desperate man and i will change that i dont want my desperation to show through lapses of constructive to my aim of what im trying to express it just comes out sometimes and i dont want to subject people to that .  It will stop when i design the way to not let  any negativity enter my attempt at work  im working  to get my dog out of here  so i dont get to witness the hell that my dog is going through here  im trying to explain so if someone wanted to know the truth they can if  they try but why would i want them to know my truth then id be like them.  Yeah i am going to share a  serious work  plan and this is as real work that no one can fairly say isnt i want to help this guy David Howels get his bitcoins back that he lost at the rubbish tip