See now it hit me why i had to do just list last few music  posts i forgot how much god loves me and i recieved the gift from him that even years later if you forget you can still maybe remember  and then now just remembering im instantantly better how could you not be  but it sux typing and recounting but if it happened to you you would one day want to help others and  try realy hard to document it , id say its the highlight of my life  but as i said its not a pleasure at all its a healing once in a lifetime thing
I dont know if this combination of elements could maybe hapoen with other stuff i would call it a holy grail repeting over and over breathing and crying  some sacred geometry freqency experience.