Ok no i cant have a break yet lets talk keeping your thread from being bumped to the top of the main "thread" you call it feed i was going to swear but thats why i love working at Treechat 

Thats why ivebeensaying its no fun for me because it wasnt . It was i cant exactly remember but i wasnt here to have fun , and im not now.  But do i love being here  i need to be here i havnt got 20 more years i wont get into it. Lonliness , despair all i know somehow  i cant comment . Im trying to sort and do so much stuff , i tried being a radio host. 
Let that sink in , and i hated it. I hated going through about 100 thousand different posting configuration , i hated seeing certain posts , i hated following back everyone because  i  found myself in the situation like before like twitter like facebook like twetch like powping.

Thats what new chapter is out with the old  and in with the new and im brand new and guess what that is how i sometimes pick tracks roots manuva  brand new ill put it on in a bit. Do i hate the sound of my voice yes do i hate the text i ve written when i write like this yes. Do i hate working at Treechat ?

NO.

Thats a hard  definite no .

How do i know and this is where i will take a break .
Because i was about to call myself a psychopath.

Like i used to no . Nevet again because im setting a standard of behaviour for myself. And i have intuition. Experience decades, thinling and thinking and ive got it worked out. Yeah  ive found what works for me.  Ive recieved the kindness ive allways longed for, ive studied the machine code this site  yep to me its a site  im not stuffing around any more im here to learn , im here to teach , im here to help im here to " work"! 

Am i stressing like i used to? No !why ?

Because ive solved it, and thats what gods put me on the earth for cos if i was having such a hard time others were to . And now i stop because ive made a few writing errors and i keep track of my errors and i change my ways  and im gona say it , because if i didnt change my ways  id  be dead. And  how i am so confident now that things are different 
Because ive tried my guts out for decades  and this is where i stop you dont build on top of shit . When you make a mistake   ten here writing like i used to , no it doesnt work your gonna find out to if you try. And this is where i used to get very very angry.because i lost track of my thoughts writing got angry and yes i remembet nowv i lost cout how many hours i spent writing a post last might. I tried my guts out to do a good post but the letters were turning ito faces coming out of the screen  i thought i was halucinating,  and this is different this is me getting on here and trying my guts out cos its still hard  i hate fucking typing on phones its that simple i hate having mental blanks like then and a hundted other thongs i hat forgeting everything ive written  and thats why i thats one sorry  reasons why i love working here unsolisited work , im the teacher sorry im a teacher yeah work at treechat or die trying. Why im trying to explain but its hard . This is where i used to have mental breakdowns  but now , fuck no. I take a fuckin break and when you type this fast on a phone your gona make mistakes and why i know i got a real fucking education that my parents gave their lives gor and im gona do them proud and im gona take a break and im not going to read my post im going to use the experience ive learned to keep this thread off main feed sorry certain mistakes  yeah thats why i take a break cos this is my limit all kinds of shit is happening do you want to see a photo of my typeing hand thats why its no fun  but its too complicated you cant fit everything in one fucking post . You got to take a break and accept your mistakes  and limit them because they will eat you alive.